Today was the second school day of the week for me and I was late...actually did not feel like coming to school de but thinking that I had skip this module too many times liao so must force myself to come...and I'm feeling super duper sian...and also super no mood to do anything...so sleepy...

Last Sat...my eldest uncle(maternal) pass away le...maybe this is a good thing for him as he was sick for quite some time le...and that he had a hard time since he was young...always being the one who was beaten up by my grandfather because of some stupid people who accused him for stealing and stuffs when he did not do anything...anyway I have learnt a lot of things during the past few days and finally seen all my aunts and uncles true colour...which is a total disappointment...haix...

For the first day of the funeral...only me and mum went...for the first day it was kinda ok for me...and we left at about 10 plus...then for the next day...the whole family except for my dad went to the funeral together and reach there at about 8 plus whereby they have started a round of prayers without us and that we started at the 2nd one which I didn't know until after the whole ceremony...but at that time I didn't think much as I thought that because we were late so its okay for them to start without us...but then on the third day...after the cremation...all of us went back to my grandma house to shower and changed then go for lunch together as my 3rd uncle and my youngest aunt told us that they will be going to get the ash so when they were done they were call us to go pray together...as the place were quite far from my grandma house so after lunch me, my sis and my mum and also 2 of my cousins decided to go to the hairdresser together to get my hair dyed and also some trimming...but in the end my 2nd aunt call them back to the car so only left me, my sis and my mum were at the saloon...then while we were at the saloon my mum called my youngest aunt many times but they didn't answer any of our call except for one after a very long time...and my mum asked her what time are they coming to fetch us to the place we have to go to pray and they told us that they were already there le and also that they were busy and have no time for us...then my mum called 2nd aunt and also found out that they were together so we walk all the way back to my grandma house...

When we reached grandma house...only my grandma and my bro were in the house...and all my cousins were gone...till then...then we found out that they had went to pray without us...which make my mum super angry as she was the eldest and that during lunch they told us that they would only be driving a car to get the ash first then after that then we go to another place together to pray...but they were like sort of tricking us la which I dunno why...which make us kinda disappointed and also angry...and my mum was super angry and so she dun wanna wait for them le and keep wanting to leave...and just when we were about to leave they came back le and that none of them really stop us.... as my grandma house is somehow in a village like that so there is quite a distance before we can get to the shopping mall nearby so we have walked out as none of them volunteer to drive us out of there...and we walked together...no one says a thing...then suddenly my second uncle stop his car right next to us and ask us to hop on...at first my mum decline but in the end we still did get on...and when we were in the car...my uncle ask why did we go without any notice...and I was thinking how can nobody no that we were leaving when they saw us taking our bags and walking away and they even pass us some things for us to bring home which my mum return it to them...I think that my 2nd uncle is the only one not knowing la as he went into the bedroom to change the minute they reach home...and now I finally know who is the nice guy and whos not...

After what had happened...I have been thinking on what my mum told me and also why they did this to us...one main reason that I thought is that we were not as rich as them or than how we were before...as my mum told me that during the funeral my youngest aunt were telling my other relatives that the funeral cost will be split between herself and my 3rd uncle and also the youngest uncle...then saying that the others wanna pay or not also can...wtf...my eldest uncle got give him about a thousand or so and also 2 rings before he pass away la...somemore in the end they also dun need to take out any money to pay for the funeral but she still act as if everything was done by her like that then still scold my mum saying that my mum did not contribute a single cent still talk so much...wth la...she is the one who told my mum that they will only collect the money when everything ends as they need to see if the money that they had collected during the funeral is enough to pay for all the cost not then if not enough then all my aunts and uncles will spilt it up...but in the end nobody have to pay any money what as the funds collected were more than enough...another thing that I thought of was that maybe it was my eldest uncle who dun wan us to go but again how could it be possible when he was like wanting to see my mum so much and even scold my mum cos my mum didn't go visit him and also didn't call him...haix...total disappointment as now they were like the same as my paternal side relatives...whereby we will always go to their house every weekend but after my dad business fails years ago and until now...we were being look down by them...and that we had stop going to their house and that they also didn't contact us only when they need our help or what...and I really hate them...hate all this kind of people...whoever is rich and they will go to them...wtf la...

hmmm...I have read this whole chunk of words...haha...I think it is might be quite difficult for others to understand haha cos of my poor standard of english...haha...anyway I understand can liao bah...haha